1. |
desire me.
02:15
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I know that my body is abhorrent
But would you once pretend that you could love it?
In that way, that I love you?
I wish I could say I was one sided
That impossibility where nothing could be kept inside of me
And finally, I'd be free from this longing
too
No one could, no one would
desire me.
I'm alone, I'm alone
Held captive here on horrifying bones
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2. |
BECOMING YOU
02:30
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I hate me,
Cause I can see myself
becoming you.
(coming you)
And I've hated you,
Since god forsaken ever,
Leave me be.
Becoming you.
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3. |
Asphalt
04:24
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It's in my lungs,
The chemical's begun,
Wasting me away,
For what I cannot say
Formaldehyde,
Saturated my pride,
In methanol,
I forfeited my soul
With stolen blood
I'm trapped below the mud
Been buried deep
Still unable to sleep
Anoxia
Doesn't stifle paranoia
Although lost at sea
No one is looking for me
You see
I'm here in isolation
Calling out in vain
I had been denied my cremation
and it's pitch black here yet again
Though corroded
Still behind my eyelids
I had stayed quiet
Just to be buried by it
Am I alive?
Though drowned in poisoned lies?
Or had I died?
When the light left my eyes...
I'm here in isolation
Calling out in vain
I abstained from my own cremation
and it's pitch black here yet again
Trapped underneath
Never to be at peace
Still singing alone
Held down by my own bones
As it begun
The burning's in my lungs
I'd give it all
To again be called whole
Mortal
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4. |
virtual
02:50
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SOS -
Would you mind if I confessed?
I don't belong,
I'm virtual,
The kind of see-through you overwrite
Apathy -
Is that how you'd all see me?
Like a virus "thrust among us"
Do you see me crying?
Dying - more than losing power,
Give me more than
Just your work-less "empathy"
I feel like a ghost in my own home,
I didn't choose to be alone,
Oh, I just didn't know
Look at me
another day behind the screen
Reality weighing on me
Do you hear me singing
Or is it that you won't listen?
Crying out,
But this is just a game to you!
I feel like a ghost in my own home,
I didn't choose to be alone,
Oh, I just didn't know
Though I write them
these lyrics can't show me
not truthfully
Though I call out
You won't really listen
not to me
consequently
I feel like a ghost in my own home,
I didn't choose to be alone,
Oh, I just didn't know
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5. |
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Although I hated it
At least I had belonged somewhere
at least he wanted me
enough to hurt me
Although I suffered
at least then I had a place
Thought I never wanted it
At least I had it
These invisible scars
Have marked me as undesirable
at least they were made because I had been once
I want to be seen
I just want you to want me
Because that was when I had some value
I will play my part
And keep being what he made me
Ugly and unlovable until someone would take me
And I might be broken beyond saving
Cause even though it's over now...
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